One Day at a Time

Well, I survived Day 1 on WW.  It wasn't too bad, although there was a moment at work when I had to break down and eat a granola bar because I left my fruit at home.  It was only 3 points so I was able to fit it in my budget no problem.  I had used 15 points before I came home for dinner so I used my remaining 20 points to eat Dad's Beef and Noodles.  I don't really know the total points that meal was worth but I doubled up on my serving of vegetables and I ate half of what I would normal eat of the beef and noodles.  So, I would call that a successful first day.  I also saw my Dr. today and he wants to test my thyroid and see if I'm having any problems with that.  He said that could be the cause of my tiredness all the time and mild depression. 

He did give me something for depression, Zoloft, but I'm hesitant to take it.  Most of it is stubbornness.  Almost everyone in my family is on some kind of anti-depressant medication but I've been able to really manage and work through whatever signs of depression I might have had thus far.  I don't know what it is that I just can't seem to get past.  Maybe its the stress of having two children, trying to work, plan my educational path, live with my parents again, have a husband deployed, a weight gain of over 50 lbs since my wedding day, or most likely a combination of everything.  I am willing to admit I need some help, pills, therapy, whatever works because I am done feeling like I can't accomplish anything.  I have to find the old me.  I'm in here somewhere.

And, on a random side note.  I am now blonde again.  Bye, bye red and hello blonde.  I lost the charger for my camera otherwise I'd post a pic.  I'll work on that....

He calls me 'Mom'

I have the most adorable two-year old boy anyone can ask for but I'm sure anyone with a two-year old can tell you how frustrating the job of Mommy can be at times.  I have to say right now my biggest frustration and pet-peeve is that he calls me 'Mom'.  Like a moody teenager, everything is "Hey, Mom" or "Ok, Mom."  I just don't like the ring to it like I do 'Mommy' from my sweet little boy.  Yes, I know I am crazy but it just gets under my skin. 

Gabe and Mommy - July 2009

 In other news I got absolutely nothing accomplished today for the upcoming trip to Texas other than a mani/pedi that I have needed ever since, well, I can't remember the last one I got, and I bought a dress for the wedding.  I'll be glad when I actually start seeing results from my weight loss and can feel comfortable in clothes again.  The gloomy weather sure hasn't helped that depression any either.  But with a little bit of sunshine this week I actually took the time to style my hair.  It's the small things in life, really.  I posted the picture on Facebook to celebrate the occasion and was greatly surprised by the amount of love and support my FB friends have shown me.  It truly lifted my spirits when I really needed it.  For that I am thankful.

Happy Monday!

Today marks the first day of a busy week for us here.  Today Gabe and I cleaned the house and I had to work later in the evening.  I work a simple part-time job to get me out of the house and socialization to other adults.  The pay is decent and I get another blurb on my resume so it's not all bad.  Boring, but work none the less.

Tomorrow is an exciting day - I can't wait.  I am getting my hair done tomorrow.  (It's the little things you get to do when you're a housewife that excite you...)  I love getting my hair done because it is the easiest thing I can change if I don't like it to something else.  I have always struggled with weight and self-esteem but with my hair I can make almost any change I want and it can be completely different the next time - whatever makes me happy.  Getting my hair done comes right after shopping and baking in my life as stress relievers.  So, we'll see tomorrow what color I end up with this time!

Tomorrow is also my Pampered Chef party.  I'm pretty excited to order some new kitchen stuff we really don't need for our new house.  (You can be just as excited by placing an order for my party too!  Visit www.pamperedchef.biz/cvincent select option 1 then use my name, Jennifer Pagan.) 


I am soooo very excited to get a new house on post when we moved back to Kansas.  I can't wait to have my little family all back together and enjoy our little lives in the hills of Fort Riley.  They recently changed the way they assign homes so based on our rank we actually qualify for housing previously designated to higher ranking members.  So, that means we can get more space and more upgrades.  :)  Here is one of the new floor plans they sent me last week.  I can not wait!  (P.S. Check out the size of the master bedroom's closet!)

Downstairs

Upstairs